Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I know this much is true...


It's May. When did that happen? The other day I remarked to one of my dear friends that I'm moving into my crazy busy time at work. And then said friend was quick to point out that I'm always in my crazy busy time at work. Huh.

Today I woke up and my ankle didn't hurt. There was no limp. Perhaps my mind is consumed by other happenings but I consider this progress none the less. I find great joy in this.

I'm on my porch as I type. It is still healing yet functional, much like myself I imagine. Neither of us is 100% but we're on our way. Minor setbacks here and there and still some repairs needing to be made still but it's all about moving forward. I'm on my porch and it is spring.

I've had Neil Young's Unknown Legend in my head for over 2 weeks now.

I eat macaroni and cheese right out of the pan - complete with wooden spoon - when I've had a notably shitty day so be warned. Should you witness this event as it occurs, do not judge, and do not stop to gawk. Just keep moving and keep it to yourself. Let me be.

I will never grow out of mixing ketchup and mayonnaise for french fries, grilled chicken sandwiches and burgers. I have no idea when that started but I will do that until the day I die so once again, no gawking, just keep moving.

Also, when I'm not feeling well I find that one of my go-to's is Saltine crackers dipped in apple sauce. And not the knock-off, whole grain or the low-sodium Saltines. They must be the real deal.

I eat spinach because my body craves it, not because it's so stinking yummy. It's what you add to it that makes it tolerable and my body is well trained to let me know when the ol' iron count is low. I obviously would much rather be chowing on a juicy burger or chicken sandwich smothered in ketchup and mayonnaise but sadly that's not always an option.

I no longer make apologies for my lapses in blogging. Life happens and I just can't force it. I'm still watching Lost and I have every intention of blogging the last 4 or 5 episodes with a nice red bow before the finale but will it actually happen? I have no idea.

My last 2 Yoga Journals have had beautifully written and poignant articles about mudita. Say it with me, mudita. In a nutshell this powerful little word encompasses the Buddhist teaching and state of unselfish joy. Finding true joy in the happiness and success of others. It sounds simple enough but I find that quite often we unconsciously exert unnecessary energy in focusing on the things we don't have and others do have so we're left with an unrealistic view of who we really are. And I say this not only for myself but for you as well. It's something to consider and something that we have to work at but once you really practice it on a daily basis - finding joy in the simplest of things - it begins to change you inside and out. Notice I didn't say my ankle felt good. I just said it wasn't hurting. If it felt good I would probably go for a run. But it just doesn't hurt. It's neutral and this is me finding true joy in the neutrality of it. Think about it. Do it.

That's all I got. Cau for now.