Saturday, September 18, 2010

Smoke.

All soap boxes aside, I admit, there are times when I miss smoking. Although it's been 10+ years since I had cigarette in hand as a 'social smoker,' there are times when I miss the sociability of it all. Sometimes. Take her for example. Just a woman smoking on her porch. Remove her cigarette and now she looks... Lost in thought? Inebriated to the point of paralysis? Either way, kind of weird. But with that cigarette, her sense of purpose is restored. Her porch presence is justified. She's just a woman smoking on the porch.

I tried smoking about 2 years ago and I have two words for that venture: epic. fail. I was with 2 girlfriends and we were - on a porch. They pulled out their cigarettes as social smokers sometimes do when there's a porch and wine involved. I asked for one. It was a Marlboro Light, ah, I was 18 again. It hit me hard, I was buzzed in 2 puffs. The first cigarette went down quick and I laughed at the nostalgia of it all. I went for a second one, took one long drag... and threw up.

So that was that. And while I'm pretty sure that I will never be a social smoker/dabbler again, there will be times when I still miss it. Until then, I am forced to tote a book or laptop with me when perched on my porch with my wine or coffee so as not to appear lost in thought, inebriated, or stalkerish. I may not know what book is in hand and my laptop may not even be on, but I will have them none the less.

Cau for now.



4 comments:

Your Mother said...

oy I'd forgotten you smoked at all. Remember when your cigs fell out of our bedroom curtains & they "aren't mine! They're Alethea's!" sometimes it looks like it would feel like a good thing to do tho.

Anonymous said...

This is your sister. Mom, remember the time you found her cigs and spelled "NO SMOKE" on her bed, yet you acted totally normal? Hmmmm. Love the post sis but shocked you failed to mention the whole asthma/bronchitis end of the situation.....

Schovillova said...

OMG girls! Enough with the trips down memory lane!
And Big Al, I clearly stated 'all soap boxes aside' from the start which included ill health effects. Besides, the reason why I ultimately quit my 'social smocking' was because it tasted gross.

Schovillova said...

Um, make that social 'smoking'. Not 'smocking'.